Why I'm Thankful for Jay's Life and Legacy

After my last blog on leaving a legacy, I received so many emails from you dads that I decided to continue with that theme.

Here’s an observation I’ve made over time: You can tell a lot about the soul of a man by the way he speaks of his children.

And you can tell even more about the soul of a man by the way his children speak of him.

Maybe it’s because of my profession where I have the privilege of getting up close to heart stories or maybe it's because I'm a daughter myself, but the unarguable truth is that when a daughter knows she is loved by her dad, it shows.

I guess you could say that her face tells the story.

When I meet a father who intensely loves his daughter, my spirit dances. I smile and celebrate when hearing their stories. I even find myself flashing forward as I envision her as a confident, clear-headed woman who believes she can change the world, in large part due to the forever investment her dad has made.

I guess you could say that my face tells the story.

Today I want to highlight the profound life and legacy of my friend, Jay McKenney, a dad whose life told the story of sacrificial, fierce, committed love.

Jay battled an aggressive form of cancer for over a decade, and in January of 2021 his suffering ended when he transitioned from earth to heaven, leaving behind his wife Allison and two daughters, Macy and Ava.

At first glance he may have seemed like any ordinary father. But if you look closer, Jay will inspire you to never again take for granted even one day that you have with your daughters. For all throughout his excruciating battle, Jay remained committed to making sure they knew how much he treasured them.

Even as his body was failing, Jay showed love and support for his daughters, leaving them with forever memories. While his presence cannot be replaced in their lives, he took advantage of every opportunity to ensure that he left a love deposit.

I guess you could say that his legacy tells the story.

I’ll always remember the day he was my in-studio guest as we recorded an interview on my radio program, The Dad Whisperer. Jay wrote me early that morning because he found out that Ava was getting an award at school and said he needed to be there. He was willing to change his plans to surprise his daughter on her momentous day.

Another way that Jay’s fathering example touched my life was to see how he made sure to be present at Macy’s track meets, cheering her on from the sidelines. He knew he wouldn’t always be there in person, which is why he invested his time when he could so she would always remember he was there.

I guess you could say that his presence told the story.

I once asked Jay how he fathered differently after his diagnosis. Here’s what he said:

“Sometimes I think in some areas I’m less patient. If the conflict is about something trivial, I find myself having an internal dialogue about what’s really important in life, the big stuff, and how this isn’t it. So the challenge for me is to get to the heart of the matter in the trivial conflicts, and to find a way to love more in the way I handle them. Because even if the conflict is trivial, me loving them well through it is not.”

His response prompted me to then ask: As a father who is facing his own mortality in ways beyond what many have faced, is there anything you would say to other dads that you’ve discovered these past couple of years?

“From the moment you wake up, you are getting messages sent to you from the outside. The majority of them that say that you need to do something more, buy something more, have something more, and if you don’t you just aren’t quite succeeding. Your daughters are getting those same messages. From social media, from advertisements, even from friends and teachers. We, as their fathers, have the best chance to consistently send a better message, louder and more consistent than the others: That they are completely loved, now. That they are fully enough in your eyes simply because they exist and they are your daughter. They need to hear it, they need to know it, they need to feel it.”

Jay had a tribe of thousands on Facebook who watched his life closely because he allowed us to have a front row seat to his process. We all said we wanted to live like Jay, adopting his word #contend as our own because in his death he taught us how to live.

I wonder sometimes why we have to be pressed to the end of ourselves or the end of our lives to have clarity. I watched Jay’s life and can honestly say that he purposely lived each day to it's fullest, seeing every day as a gift. He knew that each day was one more day he had to invest in his lives of his precious girls, and he never wasted an opportunity to show them he loved them.

On this Thanksgiving week, I’m grateful for the way Jay reminds us all to be thankful, not only that we are alive, but that we have today to make a difference in the lives of those we love.

Dadvice: How to LISTEN While Your Daughter TALKS

Dad…

I’ve been writing blogs and books for you since 2014. I do this because I stand as an ally with you as a father to your daughter. Stated otherwise, I am invested in you!

When you share personal stories with me (especially those that involve more talking with your girls!), I give you my heartfelt commendation and enthusiastic applause for the entering into the journey of intentionally pursuing your daughter’s heart.

And as you’ve heard me say repeatedly, when we as girls and women know we are loved by our dads, we have:

• greater confidence

• stronger inner fortitude

• higher self esteem

• deeper compassion

• and increased empathy

These factors enable us to give out more from a relationship bucket that is filled, due in large part to the consistent deposits that you, dad, have made into our lives.

And in case you don’t hear it enough, I want you to know that you are the most important man in your daughter’s life because you’re the first man who loved her. So it’s up to you to never give up on loving her in the ways that she needs and deserves.

If you’re like many of the men I’ve had the privilege of interacting with over the years, you’re well aware that you need a refined skill set to talk consistently and deeply with your daughter in meaningful ways that make her feel heard.

As a way to build and strengthen your skill set, I’ve created an acrostic that underscores the required components to keep the conversation moving forward with your daughter. So if you ever get lost along the way with her myriads of words (or her non-verbal expressions that do communicate, just without words), remember these four letters: “T-A-L-K.”

By doing these four things, I guarantee that you’ll stay headed in the right direction while staying close to your daughter throughout her entire life:

Time – Because love is spelled T-I-M-E.

Affection – Because healthy, safe touch from dad leads to greater self esteem in daughters.

Listen – Because when you listen, you give her the message that she is worth listening to, she has value, and she matters to you.

Kindness – Because wrapping all that you do with this quality will keep her heart open to you and to the world around her.

So if you ever find yourself floundering a bit in your relationship with your daughter, perhaps even a bit confused about which way to turn, I trust that these two words will come to mind as you invite her to open up her heart and life to you while you simply say, “Let’s talk!”

Sugar and Spice: The Secret to Fathering Two Very Different Kinds of Daughters

I had the most delightfully random encounter this past weekend. I met a woman whose vim and vigor were contagious and our interaction ended up inspiring me to look at relationships through a different lens.

Here’s the story. I was sitting at a table outside a grocery store in Central Oregon, soaking up the most delightful sunshine, when the smell of barbecue began to waft my way. Before I knew it I was in conversation with a local culinary expert who clearly expressed her enjoyment of awakening the palates of regulars and strangers alike.

Soon I discovered that Kelly (a.k.a. the “BBQ Queen” as her name tag aptly stated) has been barbecuing at this one place for 19 years! I can confidently say that I have never in my life met anyone who has been so passionately invested in and excited about barbecue…EVER. All I can say is that her enthusiasm definitely rubbed off on me!

That’s all it took for her to open up and divulge some of her tasty secrets. “The way to get the best barbecue is to have equal parts of brown sugar and vinegar. Most people get it wrong with too much of one or too much of the other. It’s got to be 50% sweet and 50% tangy. That’s all there is to it!”

And with that, she was off.

Silly as it may sound, I have been chewing on her words all week. But my thoughts haven’t been about spare ribs or tri-tip. They’ve been about fathers and daughters.

I wonder if the same principle for good barbecue could apply to personality types in girls.
I don’t quite know how it all breaks down, but I tend to think there’s an even 50-50 split between the “sweet” ones and the “tangy” ones.

Both are necessary to make our world function and thrive, and neither is better than the other. Just different. Complimentary opposites, I guess you could say.

This leads me to ask the question: Do fathers validate their “sweet” daughters as much as their “tangy” ones?

As a “tangy” daughter, I can tell you that I often wished I was sweeter and gentler, more mellow and less reactive, more go-with-the-flow and relaxed. But the reality is that I popped out like this. Lots of zest and panache (which is a fancy way of saying that I’m dramatic with lots of opinions)! Sometimes it’s been a good thing and sometimes it’s been a bit much…both for me and for my dad.

All of this pondering about girls and individual temperaments brings to mind a nursery rhyme I heard a lot growing up in the 60’s:

Sugar and spice and everything nice,
that’s what little girls are made of.
Snips and snails and puppy dog tales,
that’s what little boys are made of.

Though at the time this little jingle seemed cute and harmless, I realize now that it subtly planted seeds about what it meant to be a “nice little girl.” Add in the fact that positive responses from the general public seem to cater more to the “sugary” types than to those with a bit more “spice,” and I can say that it left me often not knowing how to understand myself, let alone like myself.

So if we use the barbecue theory as a working template on fathering daughters, it means that 50% of you are raising “sweet” girls while the other 50% are rearing “tangy” ones. And because your daughters see themselves in the reflection of you as their mirror, it is vitally important that you let each of them know that both sugar and spice are what balances out life and makes the world go round.

Dad, your daughter will believe what you tell her about herself (and what you imply without words). If you have a “sweet” daughter, you most likely find her easy to lead, and enjoy her delightful qualities. That’s all well and good. It’s beautiful and wonderful.

But especially for those of you who father a more “spicy” daughter, make sure to validate and encourage her uniqueness, one with zip and pizzazz, letting her know that she truly does distinctively enhance the atmosphere around her (even if at times she pushes every button in you and may be a lot to understand).

Let your daughter know that there are famous complimentary opposites everywhere you look. Help her understand that both have a place in the universe and both have equal value:

salt and pepper
sun and moon
fear and courage
cookies and milk

Dad, why not use all of this data as inspiration to intentionally speak positive, affirming words into your “sweet” and your “tangy” daughters today.

Let each of them know that her unique combination of savory flavors enhances your life in ways that make her one-of-a-kind mixture “taste” just the you love. Text her right now and tell her. I guarantee it’ll be the best message she hears all day!

Dadvice: Steps to Recovering from Daughter Wounds

Have you ever heard the term, “father wound”? Of course you have.

It’s a concept we use to describe the pain a father causes his kids, whether through direct harm (verbal, emotional, sexual, spiritual, physical) or by neglect, abandonment, or a lack of positive investment.

I’ve actually been addressing the topic of father wounds for years---in my blog and books, when speaking at conferences, and on The Dad Whisperer Podcast. And in my clinical work as a counselor these past 25 years, I assure you that this topic comes up somewhat frequently with my clients (to be fair, mother issues surface too).

That said, what I find interesting is that in all these years, it’s never crossed my mind to address the counter aspect of daughter wounds despite this being a common issue that dads discuss with me.

All of this was brought to the forefront when I received a recent message from Tom (who has given me permission to share this):

I was curious if you’ve ever covered the topic of how dads can get over hurts from their daughters? I recently had my first experience with it from my oldest (8 years old) and realized I better get ready for more. I’ve heard the teenage years can be really difficult because that’s when my girls will be discovering a wide range of emotional confusion and can say things they don’t really mean, but leave a mark.

I’m slowly recovering from my first encounter with it and was just wondering if you had any teaching on how dads can recover. I want to “get back in the game” and keep cheering her on, but admit that I’m hurting and finding myself not really “feeling it” right now. I know I need to step back and get healed so I can get back out there to love and support her…I just don’t really know how to do it. My tendency, like many dads, is just to say, “if that’s the way you feel, I’ll back off.”

I know I’m not supposed to do that…and don’t want to do that…but also know I can’t ignore the hurt either. If you have a podcast or something on the topic, I’d appreciate it.”

In response, let me first say that I know there are no quick fixes or pat answers here.

Every relationship is unique and there are always complex variables that come into play when two individuals are at odds. Yet I believe there are a few principles that can guide the process of healing from daughter wounds if you--like Tom--want to be a dad who keeps loving and leading through the messiness of hurt, rejection, disrespect, reactivity, etc.

I have developed a FOUR-STEP PROCESS to support you in this goal, using the acrostic, HEAL:

Honestly face the hurt

Express the pain

Allow another to walk with you

Let go of the pain

1. Begin by honestly facing the hurt you’ve experienced from your daughter.

As you well know, men have been socialized and conditioned to “never let ‘em see you cry”  while keeping a stiff upper lip at all costs.

To clarify:

• “Softer” emotions such as sadness and fear weren’t selectively handed out by God to men vs. women. All emotions come from our Creator to all of us equally

• You don’t have to act tough and deny that you’re never hurt while believing that it’s weakness to feel emotion

• When triggered by your daughter, be honest by acknowledging that she’s hurt you with her lack of respect, surly attitude, disobedience, rebellion, etc

ACTION STEP: Write down the things she did that hurt you…or speak into your phone and record notes that tell the story…with a goal of being honest with yourself.

2. Choose to proactively express your pain (verbally and emotionally release what you hold inside) in a non-destructive, non-explosive way.

This one is tricky for men because rather than feeling a “weaker” emotion, such as fear or sadness, it’s often easier to exert the “stronger” emotion of anger.

To clarify:

• When anger is your “emotion of choice,” it is counterproductive to connecting with your underlying authentic emotions

• Unrestrained anger can destroy your relationship with your daughter

• It’s vital to look for where you’re sad under your mad

• Admit your hurt rather than letting your anger do the responding for you

ACTION STEP: Even if writing isn’t your favorite activity, begin giving a voice to what’s going on inside. Write in a journal or type out what you are feeling after a challenging encounter with your daughter---Ask: What made me feel angry, sad, scared, and/or confused?

3. Allow another to walk with you as a safe witness to your pain.

I’ve met incredible men who’ve learned to open up with other guys by trusting them with their real stuff. Remember this is how bonding happens in the military---through working side by side, investing in team building, and fighting a common enemy.

To clarify:

• You’ve got to find somewhere to offload the stressors of fathering your daughter, whether to another dad, counselor, pastor, or coach (preferably someone other than your daughter’s mom)

• Be open to their input as you practice new ways of responding while being supported through the process

• As you join with another dad, he’ll validate your experiences while encouraging and strengthening your resolve to be the best dad you can be as you talk and pray together

ACTION STEP:  If you don’t have someone to vent to outside of your immediate family, take the courageous step of finding someone you can trust. Consider inviting other dads whose daughters are close in age to yours to come together once a week, bi-monthly, or once a month. I just met an awesome dad in Maryland who started his own group and they’re reading through my first book, Dad, Here’s What I Really Need from You: A Guide for Connecting with Your Daughter’s Heart while encouraging each other in their fathering journey.

4. Take the bold step of choosing to let go of the pain.

Letting go is another term for forgiveness. Forgiving your daughter will lead to your release and healing by not harboring resentment.

To clarify:

• The process of forgiveness begins by acknowledging what it is you’re releasing

• It’s vital that you first walk through steps one through three listed above so as to honor your hurt

• If you can’t find it in your heart to forgive and let go, ask God to do it for you so you can be free and set the example to your daughter of what this process looks like in action

ACTION STEP: Type the words “stages of female development” into your search engine and do research on normative responses for your daughter’s age. You will have more tolerance and wisdom if you can coach yourself through the various cycles of her life by finding out what to expect in terms of age-appropriate behaviors, thought patterns, emotional capacity, etc.

And since you’ve already begin the practice of expressing yourself with words (which takes practice; no one starts out as a wordsmith), write a letter to your daughter, a letter you won’t necessarily give to her, but that will allow you to acknowledge the wounds she’s caused while reminding yourself why you love her, ending with expressing forgiveness.

FINALLY: I know this is hard work, but so worth it in the end because it allows for truth (a.k.a. honesty, vulnerability, real emotion, etc.) to set you…and your daughter…free!

Dear Theresa... (My Letter to a Fatherless Teenage Daughter)

Meeting you this past weekend changed me. You are extraordinary. You are courageous and fierce. You are a warrior. And at only 15 years old you are a heroine in my eyes.

Hearing your story about your dad leaving years ago and not ever coming back for you touches me deeply. I am still grieving with you and for you.

Hearing that your dad has a new girlfriend who seems to have captured his gaze rather than seeing you makes me sad with you and for you.

I’m not just sad for the here and now impact to your heart, but I’m worried that you might end up believing that you aren’t beautiful enough to capture a guy’s attention. Or that you’ll run towards any guy who shows you attention because of your unmet needs and your longing to be special and cared for, even if it lasts only for that moment. Please don’t ever settle for anyone who makes you feel less than the exquisite gift that you are.

Hearing that your dad hasn’t called you for two birthdays in a row but that you’ve had to call him makes my heart ache with you and for you.

Hearing that your dad does things with your brother and not you leaves me feeling emotionally heavy because you are most likely internalizing a message that you are lacking, that you aren’t valuable, and that you aren’t worthy of his time. I hurt with you and for you.

Hearing that you and your mom now live in a homeless shelter as a result of all this, where you have to navigate public transit across vast areas of the city due to being uprooted and displaced renders me almost speechless, with an intense combination of dismay and anger. I’m overwhelmed with you and for you.

Hearing that you still long for a relationship with your dad who seems to have forgotten you brings me to tears for you.

I know you said that you stopped crying years ago. But I felt your tears deeper than your words, tucked just behind the internal valve where you shut them off awhile back.

Please know that your tears are a sign that you are alive and real, that you have a precious heart that feels things deeply. Don’t interpret crying as a sign that you are weak and pathetic.

You are strong and brave because you are still upright.

You are strong and brave because you aren’t bitter.

You are strong and brave because you get up every day and go to school and have relationships and you love God and embrace people.

You are strong and brave because you have dreams beyond where you are right now. Never stop dreaming!

Please know that your dad’s failure to give you what you’ve needed isn’t about you. It’s his stuff, not yours. His inability to be a father who notices you, makes time for you, pursues you, invests in you, and celebrates you is not because there is something wrong with you. Honey, it’s your dad’s own brokenness that keeps him from being a dialed-in dad.

On the darkest of days when your deepest self wants to believe the lie that you don’t matter because of the way your dad has treated you, just know there are truths beyond what you’ve experienced. These truths exist because they are rooted in the One who makes these promises and stands by them.

Your Heavenly Father adores you just for being you.

Your Abba (which means “Daddy” in Aramaic) Father created you and wove you together perfectly. He knew you before you were born and He delights in you!

Your Abba Dad calls you His own and will never, ever, for any reason, at any time in your entire life ever abandon or reject you.

Your Abba Father has your name tattooed on His hand and will always remember you by name (If you want proof of this, read Isaiah 49:16).

Your Heavenly Father loves you with a forever love and cherishes you every minute of every day. His consistent love for you will never stop.

Theresa, you are a treasure. To me. And to your Heavenly Father.

Thank you for the impact you’ve made on my life this week.

With love, Michelle